Turning 30...

I've never done one of these posts before, where I just ramble on my thoughts...so if you don't care to read all of it, that's fine. It's mostly for me to collect all of my thoughts and put them down so I will have some kind of record.

I wasn't too nervous to turn 30, for the longest time it just felt like another number to me. However, as the day grew closer, I started thinking more about it...and it turned out to be something I wasn't too excited about. To me it meant that I was old, that I am now on the down-hill of life...I am an adult.

However, as the day came and went...it ended up not being that bad. Thankfully I had my sister-in-law to help me through the day, but all in all, turning 30 really isn't all that bad. Yes, it does mean that I am older and now I must grow up some more. It feels like now that I am 30, I have more authority and a right to speak my mind...it's almost like it gave me a sense of empowerment. I have always looked younger than what I really am so I always felt like I don't know as much as other people do. I still tend to feel that way, especially since most of my close friends here are older than me, however, with the knowledge I gain from these friends, I am able to apply it into my children's lives, and feel confident when I make a decision.

I haven't ever been one to confront someone (I do not like confrontations and am more likely to just 'take it' rather than to fight back). However, now that I have a son in a public school, I need to change my ways and be more willing to speak up, especially if it involves my son's education. And turning 30, kinda gave me some of that ability. I still don't like confrontations and will avoid them as much as possible, but will always do my best to stand up for what is right and protect my children as much as I can.

As my children get older, new situations come up and big decisions must be made. There have been many times where I completely feel like a mom. I am excited for these moments and for the decisions I need to make for my children, although it's a little nerve racking trying to decide what's best for them and how it will affect them in the future, because you just don't know what's going to happen then.

All in all, I am grateful to turn 30 and I absolutely LOVE being a Mom. I love holding my precious, beautiful baby girl. I love listening to my imaginative, animated boys. And I love watching all of my kids play so well together. I enjoy being stopped in random places, just so that they can tell me how cute my kids are! I love the mommy moments that come my way, whether it's watching my son play T-ball (super excited, that's coming this March) or trying to decide if Lliam will be attending Kindergarten this coming school year or not (such a hard decision). Or just watching my baby girl learn new tricks (she can now sit up on her own from laying on her tummy and is trying so hard to crawl). Looking forward to turning 31 (ewww...that still sounds old tho) and for all of the new adventures that will make me a better Mommy!