Wasting Time

I have come to the awful realization that I waste too much time on Facebook and Pinterest...yes those are my two evils. I'm not much of a stalker on Facebook, however I pretty much check my newsfeed multiple times a day. Pathetic? Yes, yes it is. So, I am now going to waste my time updating my blog! I really want to start a journal and since I am already on the computer I may as well use it wisely.

These past few years have been a roller-coaster ride of an experience! The first two years were definitely the hardest ones from thoughts of being cheated on to being a single mom. I was warned ahead of time that I would be considered a widow and that raising the children and keeping up with the house will be all on me. I thought I was prepared for that, however I don't think anyone could fully prepare for graduate school with children :) The biggest thing I was not prepared for was the drastic downfall in the emotional relationship between Jed and I. For me, I NEED face time with those who I have any kind of relationship with, if I don't get it often enough I start to worry and wonder if something is wrong between me and the other person. In mine and Jed's case, he would leave early in the morning and not come home until 1:00AM the next day. I RARELY saw him. I started to worry and get thoughts about why he was staying so late (let me add a side note here and let you know that Jed  would NEVER cheat on me, he loves me too much, and if he ever did his family would disown him and keep me). I always told him that if he needed to study then he needed to stay at the school, because once he was home then his attention needed to be on me and the kids (not school), which explains why he was always gone those first two year (and boy were they intense...he was basically going to medical school on top of dental school).

However, throughout those two years Jed did the best he could to spend as much time with the kids and myself as he could. When he was home, he was with the kids and gave them as much attention as they needed. He would also stay home in the evenings when he was able to so I can have a girls night here and there (I think he realized I was a much happier wife when he did that).

We had some enjoyable moments as well, gaining a German daughter (foreign exchange student), being a tourist in LA, enjoying the Aquarium of the Pacific, Disneyland, the beach, camping, fishing, crabbing, and so much more!

This past year Jed has been home a lot more and I am having to adjust my way of doing things. You change what you do in order to get things done when there is just one of you, now that there are two of us every now and then, I need to let Jed do more to help out. However, I have learned that I have fallen into a few bad habits and will be taking this year to change them.Most importantly, I am focusing on organizing my home and keeping it clean. I understand this process will take awhile (probably a whole year) and by the time we need to move I will hopefully be happy with how my home looks and feels! I plan on posting often how I have managed to squeeze 4 children and 2 adults into our tiny little 2 bedroom home. I have already started on the kids room and once we get our printer working again I can get it finished (printing labels). I have dejunked their toys and clothes and re-organized how everything is set up. So far 3 of the kids are there but we will soon be getting Adaire out of the crib and moving Gentry into it (so ALL 4 kids will be in 1 room and hopefully Jed and I will get more sleep than we usually do).

I plan on posting often, just telling about our days and how things are going with my crazy family. Hopefully I will keep this habit up, it is definitely one that I want to continue.