All I need to do is SURVIVE!

This new year has brought a lot of realizations to the surface for me, the biggest one is the fact that I have been on survival mode for the last 4 1/2 years! Ever since Jed started going to school full time and I nannied, plus took care of my two boys, plus started my own education...all I was able to do was live day by day and survive. I never had time to look to the future and see what may come, I never had time to plan and prepare for the future. Things got randomly placed and food was randomly prepared (not always the healthiest of choices); my kids grew before my eyes without me catching every milestone. What's worse is that my spiritual part of life got neglected the worse, probably when I needed it the most.

Fortunately, I have ALWAYS been able to see what I can improve on and this year is definitely no different! What does makes it different than other years though is the fact that I am ready to get out of survival mode and into actually LIVING MY LIFE and ENJOYING it! I can notice my kids and learn what makes them tick, I can see my husband for EVERYTHING he is (good and bad), and most importantly, I can focus on myself and improve the skills and knowledge I desire to gain.

I look forward to the future; I am excited for what is to come (a little apprehensive...but excited). I am learning to step away from the computer when my family needs me and I am learning to be there for my family, especially if it means ignoring what NEEDS to be done (there's always something) and just enjoying the time together.

I now have a bazillion projects I want to do, some to improve our home and life and others just because I want to create it! We are working on our 72 hr. kits the next two weeks and then moving on to finalizing our 3 month supply (I am using this site for the 72 hr. kits).
I also want to make this by Valentine's Day (I have the frame, just need to repaint it and get the paint off the glass).

And I want to make this as well for my girls...they need a place for all of their accessories!

 On top of these fun projects I am reorganizing the rooms in my house. I have started with the kid's room and am mostly done (pictures to come soon). We have also started on the kitchen (the busiest room in the house)! I'll post pictures as we organize that room also!

And because I don't want to leave this post on everything I WANT to do, I'll leave it with my crazies!